Jennifer Lopez has broken her silence on her divorce from Ben Affleck after two years of marriage.
The star, who modeled the leopard print for the cover of Interview magazine in honor of his 55th anniversarysaid it was “sad, scary.”
The diva looked sensational in animal print bikinis as she spoke to Nikki Glaser about her crazy summer.
The Atlas actress opened up about her life “blowing up” in her face this year and the life lessons she still has to learn, even though she didn’t use Ben’s name; Jen and Ben split in April and she filed for divorce on August 20, their two-year wedding anniversary.
And then the songbird said that she had to be alone again after leaving Ben: ‘You have to be healthy. You have to be complete if you want something more complete. You have to be good on your own. I thought I learned that, but I didn’t. And then, this summer, I had to say, ‘I need to get away and be alone. I want to prove to myself that I can do that.”
Jennifer Lopez has broken her silence on her divorce from Ben Affleck after two years of marriage
The star, who modeled leopard print for the cover of Interview magazine to celebrate its 55th anniversary, said it was ‘sad, scary’
When Nikki asked if that was “hard,” JLo replied, “Yes, it’s damn hard!”
And she feels sad.
‘It feels lonely, unknown, scary. It feels sad. It feels desperate,” the Can’t Get Enough singer noted.
“But if you sit in those feelings and say, ‘These things aren’t going to kill me,’ it’s like I’m capable of joy and happiness on my own. Being in a relationship doesn’t define me. I can’t look for happiness in other people. I must have happiness within myself. I used to say I’m a happy person, but I was still looking for something to fill someone else, and it’s like, ‘No, I’m actually good.’
When talking about her “lessons,” she said it is a “lifelong process.”
“I think that’s what I love about life, that there’s no end point,” the Bronx beauty said.
‘You can only get better and grow if you want to. It grows or dies, and I don’t want to do the dying part.
“And yes, there are times when I thought I had it figured out, and then life goes, ‘Let’s send you something else and see if you fall for it. Let’s see if you really learned that lesson.” And I didn’t have that.
“I understand that in a much deeper way now, which doesn’t mean I won’t make mistakes in the future, but again, if your whole house blows up, you stand there in the rubble and you ask, ‘How are you doing?’ I will never let that happen again?”
The diva looked sensational in animal print bikinis as she spoke to Nikki Glaser about her crazy summer
The Atlas actress opened up about her life “blowing up” in her face this year and the life lessons she still has to learn, even though she hasn’t used Ben’s name
Seen with Ben when they were engaged in 2003, left, and her at the premiere of his film Unstoppable at TIFF, right
“And then you start to examine it little by little and you say, ‘Okay, I did this, this was my part in it, this is what I should have seen early on, this is what I didn’t look at.’ Those are the real lessons.’
But without mentioning the end of her marriage to Affleck, she said she hadn’t learned her lesson.
‘The work is figuring yourself out. “It’s looking back at the underlying feelings and beliefs we have about ourselves that cause us to make certain choices and create certain patterns in our lives,” she said.
“And so, when you get to a point where you think you’ve learned the lessons, and then it blows up in your face again, you realize, ‘Okay, I didn’t do that, so what is it that I have to do?’ ‘ now look?” I would say never stop looking inward because it is so easy to blame everyone else.”
And then she said she had to be alone again after leaving Ben: “But you have to be healthy. You have to be complete if you want something more complete’
She added: “You have to be good on your own. I thought I learned that, but I didn’t. And then, this summer, I had to say, ‘I need to get away and be alone. I want to prove to myself that I can do that”
When Nikki asked if that was “hard,” JLo replied, “Yes, it’s damn hard!”
And she feels sad. ‘It feels lonely, unknown, scary. It feels sad. It feels desperate,” the Can’t Get Enough singer noted
Lopez then said her flaws should also be loved while addressing “boundaries.”
“Someone who truly loves you will help you heal those parts of yourself. That’s what I learned about love: that it is something safe. You make me feel safe, and if I don’t make it to glory, you understand me and help me get better, because you have your limits and I have my limits.”
She said she was happy in Toronto while promoting Ben’s film Unstoppable.
‘I felt very good. The film is really beautiful. You do these things and then you forget about it, because they’ve been in the closet for so long, and you’ve moved on to other projects, and I’ve taken time off, so I haven’t been in that mentality.
“I made the movie because it was such an inspiring story, and it was a Latino story. It’s about Anthony Robles, a wrestler born with one leg, and how he defied the odds in his sport. I play his mother, who had him when she was 16.’
And she saw the film at TIFF.
“I saw it all done for the first time with audiences in Toronto, and people loved it and really responded to the emotion of the film. It’s one of those great inspirational stories that I think the world needs right now.”
